With this relationship hitting the 8 month mark. I am trying to figure out what i really want. He seems like the perfect guy for me: we like the same things and want the same same things he is loving and caring and a great father figure to my daughter. So why is it i am feeling like i don't want to be with him at times and I think I figure it out.
I don't want to have anymore kids. Ones enough I know that he wants to have at least one more. However, I just want to spoil my daughter and his son. I think it can work out perfectly just the way it is. In addition, if things don't work out I don't want to raise another child by myself. I mean i know he is going to be around but he doesn't have a career. He works but nothing that I consider that would be long term or where he can grow from it. I must admit I know what I like. And I have plans in the next 3 years to better myself and get off of other people helping me.
From an non relationship stand point i look at him and see nothing. I mean everyone has ruff stops in their lives but we are suppose to grow and learn from it. It just seems that he is in the same spot as two years ago, and that is not in the finical stable that i would suspect a man his age to be in, I mean I know I can change him in that area but yesh. Sometimes I feel like i will have to sign a prenuptial if we ever got marry. Well, i shouldn't say that i feel like i would have to sign one with anybody I get married too.
And that brings me to another point I also feel like I don't want to get married. The thought of being tied down to another man for the rest of my life, and unbelievable. I KNOW how man are, and i know how i am and i don't think there is a man on earth that can handle me. I'm wild and I do admit that enough is never enough in my head.
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