Taking care of Lil K

Okay this is week three of chemo and things are looking better. She has been running around and jumping and back to all of her old ways. If you had ask me three weeks ago I would not of thought this possible. There was a point where the simple act of bending down was painful and heartbreaking for me to watch.
It is truly amazing how fast the chemo had work for her, She had seem better since the first treatment, And that had help put my mind at ease with this. Nobody ever thinks about wither or not their children will get cancer or become seriously sick. when I heard the word chemo I automatic though all the worst the throwing up the hair lost, being bed ridding and not being able to have a normal life. I am happily shock and surprise at the team that that she has and what she can do. And how Lil K puts on a smile most of the time to make everyone think that she is okay and whatnot.
But as a mother that knows her child I know this isn't true, I know that she is hurting inside. I know she hates needing to have to wear a back brace, or how she cant play outside with her friend at recess. So right know I  do my best to give her everything she needs, and then more.

Taking care of Lil K

As all of you that follow me on tweet might know Lil K is undergoing chemotherapy for the LCH. We have to travel An hour and a half for her treatment and to see other health care team.

And I do mean team I feel like she is seeing at least 10 different doctors, nurses , child life workers, and social workers. It may seem like a lot but all of it is needed to make sure she is back on the road to recovery and getting everything she needs.

Since the chemo has been wreaking havoc on her system,  I decided to leave school and stay home and be a stay at home mom. There always seems like there is something to do in the house, either I need to run and get something from the store or I am cleaning non stop. I don't mind it, it does get take some time to get use to but I am finding a routine that I am used to and enjoying certain parts over other.

FAMILY

About two weeks ago when this all started I had call up Lil K’s father and had let him know about the situation and how serious things might be. At that time she would be going for an biopsy because it looks like it can be cancerous  and that the doctors will tell me about the results the next day.Now I don’t put a lot of confidence in this so called man. But I was at least hoping that this might make him at least realize how important it is to at least keep some type of contact with his daughter. He told me that he would call back; and he never did.

I hate using the term "sperm donor" but I think he deserves that title because he just don't care. I am tried of hearing I want to change and I will change. Just to get nothing. And why should I subject my daughter to that? Why should I let her know about a man(and I do use the term loosely) that doesn't give a damn to call her daughter up and find out how she is doing?

So I ain’t. I am not going to let any guy come in and hurt my daughter. I know she needs to know about who her father is, and I do understand that. And I hope that when she gets older that she can understand why he isn't part of her life. Because of all the lies and abuse that I once went through with him ...

SCHOOL

Like I have said earlier I am not attending school this semester to take care of her. I decided that this year I will be taking online classes at the local community college at my school. And then possiable thinking about finishing my degree online instead return to the college that I was currently attending. I am taking it one step at a time and putting my daughter first as always.

In support

My daughter is going through chemo so I cut off all my hair...